I always feel things that I cannot say. It’s one of the most frustrating parts of my gift, but my spiritual adviser was just telling me yesterday that I cannot and should not say everything I feel. It is a waste of my talents and gifts and some people are just not ready for it.
Today my boys and I were at the Kid’s Kut. As my youngest son was getting his hair cut, a young couple walked in with their toddler son. The wife was overwhelmed. As always, my heart feels for women who are overwhelmed with the weight of motherhood. It is a feeling that I completely relate with. Her husband looked like a nice enough guy, but I could feel his “other woman.” She texted him and she was in his pocket as he stood there with his wife and child. No judgment, but within minutes I saw the outline of his emotional affair with a woman he met on the Internet. He was so lonely. This woman was so willing. I wanted to pull the wife aside and warn her. It was not that I wanted to get the man in trouble. He felt like a good guy who was quickly getting wrapped up in a situation that was becoming larger than him. I just wanted to hug her and tell her to really look at her husband. It is amazing how alone two married people can feel in the same relationship. If they could just turn and look at the other, perhaps things could be averted.
After the haircut, I took my boys to the Five and Below store. As we were walking back to the car to head home, I saw the woman walking again with her young son. Her husband was nowhere to be found. It took every bone in my body to keep walking. I didn’t say anything. It was right to not say anything. Right?