I am not having a good day. It’s not terrible. I just feel like I am covered in this negative energy. Things are not working out. I feel frustrated and irritated.
I feel upset that things are not happening the way that I want them to happen. I want to have a temper tantrum. I wish I could throw myself on the floor like my three-year-old and kick until these feelings go away.
In my head, I feel like people are annoying and disappointing and situations just want to work against me. Though these spirals are much more rare nowadays, I still get tied up in them.
I have tried all of my tried-and-true ways for lifting this rut. None of them are working. I guess I just have to bear it. The path leads through it, but this is just so uncomfortable. I can’t even really blame this on anyone else. I think this negativity is mine, but I am not sure. My younger brother just went through a really bad breakup and was sitting to my left at dinner last night. I may have absorbed some of his energy. I don’t always know when it is someone else’s.