I am really in a terrible mood. I went from bad to worse, and I can’t seem to get back on track. The worst part is that I am not sure why.
I have tried all of my usual remedies to no avail. I’m reading, running, swimming, meditating, biking, etc, and each one gives a brief respite, but it just keeps coming back to this.
This funkiness is pervasive and heavy. I am rethinking every major decision I’ve made in the past three years. I am wondering how I got to this place. Why do I suddenly feel so trapped again?
It is only the middle of summer. I have so many more days left to spend with my boys, and I don’t want to ruin it. This is what I do. I am so much better at understanding other people’s emotions, but when it comes to my own, I just can’t wrap my mind around it.
I just need to have faith that the answer will arrive. Maybe it will be here in a Tiffany blue box with a pretty bow. Wishful thinking…