New Year


I am not very good at New Year resolutions.  I don’t think I’ve even made that many during my lifetime.  This year I am not going to make resolutions, but I do think I am going to create some standards.  This year I am going to try and do/remember all of the following:

1.  I am going to work on my emotional development.  I have spent much of my life in unhealthy, emotional romantic entanglements.  I am going to try and avoid said entanglements and really learn why/how I keep repeating the same pattern.

2.  I am going to work on speaking my truth.  For so many years, I have thought things or felt things and kept them to myself because I feared what others would think about me.  I am not talking about those judgmental things I think/feel about people.  These truths of which I speak are the ones which are personal to me.  These are the times that I feel I want to be heard. I want to actually work on speaking them aloud despite what I fear others will think.

3.  I am going to work on loving myself. I am so good at loving others.  There is a large part of me that can turn myself inside out for another just so he/she will love me.  I am not against my actions that make others feel loved, but I am going to love myself first so that when I do these things for others, I will know it is for the right reasons.

Practical things to accomplish during this new year (but they sound like resolutions):

1.  Moving on and moving out of my current living situation.

2.  Staying physically/mentally  healthy.

3.  Writing more.

I hope all is well with all of you and that you also have a happy and healthy new year.