Relationships and the Empath

Romantic relationships have always been tough for me. When you can feel other people’s emotions and truth, it can often be difficult to remember that emotions are not who the people are at any given time. It is also tough to know boundaries. “The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen…

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Sadness and REM

My friend loved REM.  Every mix tape she ever made me had an REM song on it.  I have been listening to their songs for the last two days.  I feel like somewhere in the lyrics and melody there are answers.      “You were a shirt of violent green, uh huh/ I never understood…

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Single Mom Life: The End/ The Beginning

Yesterday signaled the end to my life as a single mom.  My boyfriend asked me to be his “forever person” and I gleefully accepted. I am reminded of Dr. Manhattan’s words in the latest installment of The Watchmen on HBO: “In the end? Nothing ends, Adrian. Nothing ever ends.” So much of my life as…

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Single Mom Life: Problems

Currently, I feel as if my life is full of problems.  Feelings of fear, sadness, lack of belonging are all swirling around in me.  Thoughts contradict themselves in my mind. I have nothing to be sad about. I am fat. My boys are healthy. I should feel happy.  Odd memories of much unhappier times keep…

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Single Mom Life: A Cautionary Tale

Once upon a time… In a city far, far away… There was once a princess… Actually, I don’t know where I am going with this.  To be honest, there is no fairy-tale way to begin this story because this is certainly not a fairy-tale type of story, but the advice that comes from it needs…

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Single Mom Life: Pimples & Pubic Hair

My son Cole is only 11, and I recently saw two emerging pimples on the left side of his nose. “Oh,” I said, “You’re getting pimples.”  I said it lovingly because I realized that this is his ascent into puberty. “Can I pop them?” “No,” he said with shock.  “Why would you do that?” “Come…

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Single Mom Life: A Note to Self

I just started a new book. It was left on my desk yesterday with no note.  Books always have a way of finding me, but I wish I knew who this person is because I would thank him/her.  This little number is a compiling of well known people and the notes they would write to…

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Single Mom Life: Dreaming

I have been doing a lot of dreaming lately.  In my daily life. In my meditations.  I am dreaming of my future and I am dreaming about my past. The other night my BF and I were at an Ugly Sweater party.  He is about seven years younger, so much of the party was made…

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Single Mom Life- An End in Sight & Sacagawea

The holidays are always a great time for reflection and a chance to count abundant blessings.  My eight-year-old said very sweetly at our Thanksgiving that he is thankful for his family.  His family, which composes many different people who were not in his life even four years ago, now includes my boyfriend, his father’s girlfriend,…

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Single Mom Life-Am I a Fighter?

Another afternoon conversation with one of my best girlfriends went like this: “Well, I am really proud of you.  You fought back and you’re not a fighter,” my friend with a smile.  Her remark was in response to my son’s most recent IEP meeting.  I had not backed down.  I stood my ground when they…

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